Thank you,
its hard to believe that three years ago, Sing it loud helped me through my first break up, and has been there through every up and down in my life, even now, even though i’ll never get anything new, the old gets me through.
Today has been a hard day, from being yelled at and feeling like crap about myself. After my nap while i was still upset i was looking for something and i knocked over a pile of cd’s the only one in a case happend to be the first sing it loud CD. It landed right on my foot as almost to say listen to me.
I put it in and still till this day, it takes me back to the first time i saw SIL live, It was when they were on tour with cobra starship three days before my 18th birthday. I remember being the few in the crowd who knew every lyric from the time the music started, but there was almost not a single person not moving to the music (minus the two douchebags next to me who thought they were cool because they started moshing together during the next set, i punched one of them in the face for being stupid) I ended up getting out of the crowd during Hit the Lights and went over to the merch table.
I had no real money on me but i got to meet Pat for the first and only official time he was a sweet guy and genuinely nice. It never seemed faked or forced it seemed like he was happy to talk to me, and its rare to find sometimes. He was one of the sweetest guys i met in a band.
i was lucky enough to see them on one of the last tours they were on with Every Avenue… my friend talked to them, but yet i stayed back, i tend to be more nervous than i was awhile ago, i smiled and held a camera, i was just happy to be alive and not dead from heat stroke… say what you want about michigan, but it gets damn hot in july, especially at the old mixtape when 300 people are smooshed in there.
I cried when my sugar sweet bracelet broke, everyone looked at me weird at school, i mean 20 year old learning cosmetologist crying over a rubber bracelet? but no one understood, and i couldnt explain it.
And even today, when i feel like a let down, a curse, and an annoying girlfriend. SIL has been there to make me feel at ease, to take me back to those moments where everything was okay…
